Otherkin typically consider themselves to be reincarnations, to have connected souls or to simply be a creature considered “mythical” by mainstream society. Whilst there are otherkin who consider themselves to be reincarnations of various “normal” animals, these groups tend to be closer to the definition of therian. For the purposes of this and future post the following definitions:
Otherkin: Those who consider themselves to have some connection to a creature typically considered “mythical” or in the area of cryptozoology.
Therian: Those who consider themselves to have some connection with an identified and accepted member of the kingdom animalia.
Otakukin: Those who consider themselves to be reincarnations of fictional, or in some cases non fictional, characters.
Which class a person would fall into typically depends on which aspect of their identity they value most prominently. So for instance, a werewolf who considers themselves to be a human with a connection to wolves but no discreet transitionary phase would fall into the therian category, since there is no invocation of a cryptozoological creature. Likewise, a werewolf who believes themselves to be the reincarnation of Lucian (Michael Sheen’s charcter in the Underworld film series) would be an otakukin. A werewolf who considered themselves to be a half human, half wolf creature, or one of the many classical interpretations of the condition is an otherkin.
This brings us to the first interview in this section. Otherkin as a community tend to be larger and more varied than most, since the group comprises vampires, werewolves, angels, zombies, and many others. Since some of these groups, such as the vampirekin, are such a large subculture, they need far more space than a single post can provide. As such, consider this an introduction to the otherkin group for those of you who have never heard of them before, or some light reading for those who have.
The interview is with an angelkin (in the otherkin movement there is a tendency to add the suffix kin to your creature type), in her early twenties. She believes herself to be a reincarnation of an angelic ambassador and diplomat, someone who dealt with the bureaucracy of heaven essentially. Her time on earth is on the job training to prepare her to be a better angelic diplomat when the time comes. Her name and any identifiable information has been removed as requested. Enjoy.
How did you come to know your were an angel in human form?
Oh dear. That’s a long story, though I won’t tell all the details. I discovered my angelic name through a sort of…persona that I created and really related to. She was an angel and reflected a lot more of who I felt I was than myself. I, after realizing that she was an angel, decided that she needed an angel name. I did some googling, but no names seemed to fit her. So, I sat down for a few minutes and thought. A stream of letters came into my head and the name sounded perfect. I had also, previously, designed the angel to be an ambassador and diplomat. A few months later, I decided to do some research to find out if this was a real angel–I discovered that the angel’s name is inscribed in the Kamea and that she is an angelic ambassador and diplomat. It completely shocked me that I knew this about the angel. I had never heard of this angel before, how did I know her duties?At first I believed I was a prophet or it was just a coincidence, but then more coincidences started happening. I had also come to realize that I wanted to be this angel–my technical persona–but I felt crazy for identifying with this angelic self so much. I thought I was delusional as I got more and more signs that I /was/ this angel. I’d ask God if I was, and then look down and there would be a white feather in front of me. This must have happened at least a dozen times. Sometimes, I’d ask for a sign and the song “Give Me a Sign” would shuffle on my iPod. They were things that happened too frequently to just be coincidences. I still thought I was insane though.I’m very scientifically minded, though, so I needed some more ‘proof’ to accept that I could actually be an angel. At that time, I had turned more towards the Devil, finding his responses to be clearer and easier to take in. I still love and trust God, though. I sort of joked with Lucifer, like in a meditative/prayer type of situation, to contact me through this one website. Lo and behold, he did. He had a conversation and introduced himself as Lucifer. This is not a site where someone would do that. Plus, the proof came with what he said. He stated my angelic name, then fact that I am an angel reincarnated, my age, and a variety of other personal things about me. Things that no one but Lucifer and my best friend know, and my best friends couldn’t have been online. Of course, I had not really expected a response that was so…tangible, but I took it. I finally had proof! It was dramatic, though I will never use the proof to ‘prove’ myself, since I don’t want to be that type of person who becomes prideful about this. Generally, I like to stay anonymous and tell my story only so people can know and learn from it. Hence why I never actually mentioned the name of the angel that I am.Oh, and one other fact. I had no idea of the term ‘otherkin’ or ‘incarnated angel’ until a couple of months after I had realized that I was an angel in human form. This disproved the usually assumed desire to ‘be special,’ since this journey honestly scared me more than making me want to be not human. Also, I gained a bit more proof by discussing all of this with a psychologist who taught me the difference between delusions and reality, proving once again that I was not delusional. It shocked her, that I was an angel, but she had proof laid out before her and believed me. She has helped me a lot.
What is the Kamea?
Kameas are a sort of religious magic square. That’s my understanding of them, at least.
Could you talk me through the Kamea a bit more. How was the name inscribed on them? Are they physical things?
All that I really know about Kameas are that they are magic squares. I honestly don’t know that much about them, except that various angels and some of their duties are mentioned there. They are physical things–almost like religious texts.
How have you came into contact with the Kameas?
Research has lead me to the Kameas.
What duties does an angelic ambassador and diplomat have?
An angelic ambassador and diplomat basically works in the same manner than a human one would, except for cross-universal as opposed to cross-country. I also guide all the diplomats and ambassadors, as well as the officiating that goes on in the various countries. Of course, I’m not doing this now, since I am currently human. My reason for incarnating here, though, was to experience being human–which will help me in being a better ambassador.
Why are ambassadors needed? Could you explain some more about the working of angelic ambassadors and diplomats?
Ambassadors are needed in the same way that human ones are. There are many species and sects, as well as the various levels of Heaven that all need to be held together with a specific series of messengers. Of course, there are also disputes and negotiations needed–hence the ambassadors, we are needed to deal with such conflicts. It is quite similar to humanity, just angels see everything as one as opposed to the human view of the “self” being the only important thing (don’t take that to be insulting, I simply mean it in the psychological state).
Could you talk me through some instance of where ambassadors have been needed in heaven?
Oh dear, my memories aren’t the best. I more just remember that it was similar to what can be observed on earth.
What are the species and sects?
Just the different groups of angels (like in the 7 planes of Heaven) and fallen angels. Some other spirits I assume were included in the different species. Eventually, I believe, angels and humans will know of each other–so then more ambassador work will be needed.
Can you explain the different plains of heaven and the interactions with the fallen angels?
The different planes of Heaven, as I know it, are just for organization. Heaven slowly developed as the universe was created; it had it’s own sort of evolution. I don’t remember much of it, though.
Why will humans and angels eventually know each other? And in what way will the ambassadors be needed then?
I have no knowledge about if humans and angels will know each other…it’s all part of the Divine plan. You’ll have to ask God about these questions!
What website did Lucifer contact you through?
The website was anonymous like Omegle–so you can imagine my shock when, after I prayed for this exact encounter, I was contacted by Lucifer and told details that only him or I could know about myself. The details he spoke were too in detail and personal to just have a random person guess.
You don’t seem scared of Lucifer, when he is normally painted as evil in the Christian mythos, is this accurate would you say?
I have never seen Lucifer as being evil. Of course, I think that ‘good’ and ‘evil’ are not really legitimate ‘sides,’ but Lucifer is certainly not this dark creature. He still works with God, and although he is rebellious and certainly does not always follow orders, he is still a wonderful angel. He’s not dark, though he does make mistakes. The only reason he is known as Satan is because he was God’s first adversary (Satan means ‘adversary’). He stood up to God, thinking it was only fair that humans, angels, and God Himself were equal. Obviously, as demonstrated by Lucifer’s fall, God didn’t agree.
How did you learn these things about Lucifer?
Most of the things about Lucifer that I know have come from periods of self-discovery. I am actually closer to Samael than Lucifer, though, despite my previous convictions of them being the same. The mind tends to make assumptions without proof. I only had theology to go off, and believed both to be the same being. They are not, though.
Who is Samael, how does he differ from Lucifer?
Samael is the angel of death and the actual embodiment of Satan. He was the voice of the angelic rebellion, and Lucifer was more of the brains. Lucifer is classically known as God’s favorite angel, and some speculate that Samael is actually an aspect of God Himself. Lucifer also has black hair and eyes, Samael has blonde hair and brown eyes.
Given you have got most of your information fit seems from Lucifer/Samael, and neither are painted in classical religion as particularly truthful, how can you be sure what you’ve been told is accurate?
Actually, most of my original information came from God. Then only a minor bit is from Samael or Lucifer. Most is from my own meditative work, and I always pray to God for protection before. By now, I just know that it’s not a trick–there is too much personal evidence within myself. And, also, Samael is not actually portrayed as that dishonest. All of Satan’s lies, Biblically, were really just opinions. I’ve done a lot of research to ensure this.
Can you talk me through some of the history of heaven, Lucifer, etc. For instance how the angelic rebellion occurred? What are the different angels and spirits in heaven and I assume hell? How are they different?
The angelic rebellion, as I remember, was not what is spoken about in the churches. There were no great battles…maybe some individual fights, but nothing too severe. The rebellion was really just the end of angelic bliss and the need for the understanding of responsibility–hence why it, theologically, came about around the time of man’s creation. It’s complex, though, and there is a lot I don’t know. Lucifer, though, was more the brains of creating any sort of rebellious knowledge and Samael was the voice of the rebellion. Of course, there was no dramatic fight, just angels with differing opinions.
Oh dear…I don’t remember all the different spirits, I’m sorry.
What you do remember about the evolution of heaven and the angelic rebellion?
I really don’t remember much. I just remember Samael and Lucifer lead the “rebellion,” and that there really was little hatred (that I remember) towards God. It was more just…equal rights?The evolution of Heaven is vague in my mind. I can’t share any more details due to lack of knowledge.
What proof did you present to your psychologist?
The proof was…extensive. The major portion was the conversation that I had, though there were a lot of things that happened surrounding that as proof as well.
Could you go into more detail about what your conversation with your psychologist was like and the proof that convinced her?
Mainly the proof, besides that internet message I had, was just that I was sane. She knew me from before and I have normal relationships, so that ruled our psychosis. Schizophrenia was ruled out since I don’t see things or hear things–all memories were done through past life regression. Delusions were ruled out because I was willing to accept that I could be wrong (for a delusion, you must be stubborn about it), and that it wasn’t completely implausible (depending on religious beliefs). Also, it couldn’t be anything due to grandeur since I wasn’t prideful about it. I kept it a secret and didn’t flaunt it, like someone with a grandiose delusion would do.Mainly the proof, besides that internet message I had, was just that I was sane. She knew me from before and I have normal relationships, so that ruled our psychosis. Schizophrenia was ruled out since I don’t see things or hear things–all memories were done through past life regression. Delusions were ruled out because I was willing to accept that I could be wrong (for a delusion, you must be stubborn about it), and that it wasn’t completely implausible (depending on religious beliefs). Also, it couldn’t be anything due to grandeur since I wasn’t prideful about it. I kept it a secret and didn’t flaunt it, like someone with a grandiose delusion would do.
Actually, most of my original information came from God. Then only a minor bit is from Samael or Lucifer. Most is from my own meditative work, and I always pray to God for protection before. By now, I just know that it’s not a trick–there is too much personal evidence within myself. And, also, Samael is not actually portrayed as that dishonest. All of Satan’s lies, Biblically, were really just opinions. I’ve done a lot of research to ensure this.
How have you done this research? Meditating or were there other methods of information gathering?
I was originally inspired through theology, but now I do my own meditation and self discovery. I also have a few people that I talk with and we back check discoveries–it’s the best way of proving we’re not delusional; if you remember the same thing as another.
In your regression sessions how did you rule out the problem of false memory syndrome?
I never create an identity from the memories, for the most part, so it wouldn’t affect my mental state (“ego”) if I was to have false memories. I usually rule this out though since I have the same or complementary memories to another incarnated angel I know. When you remember the same thing, making two witnesses, there is a better chance of accuracy. Plus, the memories are not mental–there is a different plane that they exist on, I suppose…it’s hard to describe. The false memories usually come when I think about something, instead of just experiencing the memory. It’s hard to explain, but I have really good guidance on which are true and false. It’s much like…the mind can’t fabricate something that is not quantitative to the detail of the vision. The mind works in quantity, but these memories are past the physical–so the mind itself cannot comprehend them. Hence why it is hard to explain the full memories in my stories. Also, false memories need an influence in order to manifest (i.e. someone watching an 1800s-time movie and hearing that false speech in the “memories.”) There is nothing that accurately depicts scenes before there was any physical matter (it cannot be physically depicted), so it is impossible for the mind to fabricate that. Does that make sense?
It doesn’t really make sense, could you maybe go into more detail about the way in which these memories differ from earthly ones?
It’s quite difficult to explain, since you can’t really put a memory that existed before language into comprehensive words…but, it’s basically that the mind (the one that wanders and thinks without control…that ever present thought train that is going) wasn’t there. We lived solely aware of the present tense. Also, some of the memories existed before the creation of the physical universe–things that the mind cannot fabricate. It wasn’t just “blackness.” It’s hard to explain–it’s one of those things you need to see and feel to really understand. Also, in order for the mind to fabricate a memory, it would need to understand how something would feel, and the process of incarnating and existing before the “Big Bang” were things that the mind really doesn’t know. I hope that makes a bit more sense…
How long have you known you were an angel in human form?
Angel in human form works, yes. I think that’s probably the best description–it has the least direct labels. I’ve been conscious of it for 2 years, approximately. I used to go around when I was just a child though and tell my friends that I wasn’t completely human–funny how you act as a child! Also, in all of my dreams, I’ve always been an angel, even since I was really little. But, it wasn’t that which “inspired” my self-discovery and eventual discovery of being an angel.
How have you met the other people who confirm your memories?
Yes, I’ve met two people. They are also angels in human form. We have shared memories, which basically disproves this to be a delusion, as we recorded the memories before sharing them (to prevent a group delusion).
Is there a large angel in human form community?
There is an “angel in human form” community…I believe you can find some if you type in “angelkin” to a search engine. I try to avoid it, though, since I find the personal exploration into your spirit more important. But, there are some times when resources and contacts through those can be helpful. Sometimes people are legitimate. Of course, some also show signs of delusions, but I am no psychologist and am not going to judge them.
How has your life changed since the revelation of your angelic past?
Quite a bit on a personal level. I have had my view of life and the world completely switch, matching that of something similar to the Eastern enlightenment perspectives. I can view my mind as a “tool” as opposed to letting it run me, and I have lost the majority of my mental ego (the feeling of the “self”). I’ve also had vibrational energy around me that I’ve begun to feel…almost like my skin is shaking. It’s quite interesting.I’ve only told a few trusted people in person about this. My best friend has helped me a lot, as have a few other friends. My sister also knows, as does one psychologist. They all believe it. Of course, as I become more in tune with my spirit, I’ve noticed some distance from them. Communication wise, the friendships have become more intimate (they trust me with more), but everyone is saying that I seem like I’m on a different plane now. Like, I can get along perfect around in society and such, but I have a presence, they say, that doesn’t seem human. It’s actually caused a bit of a ‘void’ with my best friend–she says I seem more like a guardian angel rather than a human friend.